I have stayed with a friend for the last week and the last 2 nights in hotels. Before that I lived in my car for a week at South Gare (again) before a Policeman followed me home to make sure I was ok, as I had ran my battery flat listening to the radio. I often forget that we really are surrounded by some amazing people. This guy could see I was in a right state and made me sit in his car and talked openly about his own issues. He then spoke to my wife for 30 minutes, he didn't need to do that . I'm going to go live in a room for a month from tomorrow to give my wife some space.
I never knew life could be this hard. As in your head, the pain, they torture you put yourself through,.
I have a call with Impact shortly, then I will head to Pools for an Andy's Man Club meeting. Without the support I get from talking to people, I don't even want to think about, what might have been. If you are struggling, just talk. If you are scared to talk, just talk. I want to find the real Mark, it has been 3 years next week when I cracked, I just want to be me again.