Sorry to hear of your loss, it’s an awful experience to go through, strips you of any sense of control over your reality, just sitting there listening to those words, then watching some one you love deal with what’s happening to them physically and emotionally and no ability to take control and change it for the better. I wish no one had to go through cancer and bereavement from cancer. As a widower it can make you a stronger person in some ways, but it steals a bit of your soul too. My heart breaks for your journey mate