When the narrative of a party is driven by your opposition you cannot but help march the beat they dictate, when you work within from, either side, to disunite and destabilise a party you're a member of then your primary aim is not electoral success but proving a point that matters little, the current shambles that my Party has become is upsetting, distressing, frustrating and leaves me utterly bereft of what the future holds for my country, the Corbyn debacle has been replaced by a disaster of a different type, I supported Starmer in the hope he was a man capable of achieving unity, appearing capable, sensible and competent in the face of the cult of Johnson's Brexit and his litany of missteps and faux pas, unfortunately he hasn't moved Labour any closer to being electable than his predecessor, he appears to have thrown the baby out with the bath water and lost the essence of what the Labour Party should mean, hounding the wrong targets, focusing on niche things and allowing the worst Prime Minister in history's primary opposition to come from those from Johnson's own party.
It saddens me to see posters I respect at each others throats and disagreeing instead of being able to find a common ground and unite, it depresses me to think how bad it will get before things get better and it concerns me that I have no answer or solution to the current katzenjammer as there doesn't appear to be anyone capable, willing or brave enough to stop the implosion and create an electable force, Labour MP's fiddling while Rome burns and arguing over who is responsible for the fire without the sense of trying to put it out first.
I've never felt so politically homeless and so despairing that me and my like have no identity within the framework of any party or any obvious answer to remedy this malady. My Labour Party was a broad church of tolerance, of respect, of inclusion, of acceptance and recognising the positives of difference and using them to campaign for changes that benefit all, not some exclusive homogeneous entity that stands for everything and nothing, it was a righter of wrongs, an embracer of progressiveness, a supporter and aid of the underdog.
30 plus years a member and I no longer recognise the Party or my role, if any, within it. Maybe I've changed and am an outlier but I think my views are the same, with the edges rounded off, as they were as an 18 year old who saw first hand the yoke of Thatcherism and her own version of the Harrying of the North, and it's especially sad because if we ever needed a Party of liberal understanding and a recognition of the importance of society it is now.