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Aet290204 said:
Counsellor didn’t turn up.

Reckoned she got stuck in traffic, tried to call me but couldn’t get through.

I waited half an hour and because I’d heard nothing I went home. Then she Turned it round on me for not calling her before I left. Even though I don’t think I had her number.

As if I wasn’t anxious enough.

I have no idea where she was coming from but I do know the A47 has been closed all day.
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That's appalling, very sorry to read that aet.
 
People certainly do care. I don't know you, and i care.
Thats bloody awful from the therapist, not the fact that she diddnt turn up, anyone can get stuck in traffic, but then to try and shift blame to you!
Anyway, keep on posting here.
People are thinking of you pal.
 
AET - I'm in a bit of a tail spin through changing medication.
As it is, nothing is worth any effort and I cant be ar.sed with anything or anybody. The world is a horrible place for me, right now.
Sometimes I see people laughing in the street and I think, 'what the fu.ck has he got to be so happy about?'.
But..I know its a phase. I'm sure deep down you know it too. All we want is to be normal. Not happy, just fuc.king normal.
I'm just living right now. nothing makes me happy or gives enjoyment but i will be ****.ed if I am going to stop trying to sort things out.
I suppose i am lucky that my depression manifests as anger towards government or over paid loaned premier footballers etc not towards myself.
 
MoggasDog said:
I suppose i am lucky that my depression manifests as anger towards government or over paid loaned premier footballers etc not towards myself.
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Alright Mogga.
I can’t be arsed getting upset about that sort of thing.
Long learned there is nowt you can do but watch from afar.
Same reason I don’t get upset watching the Boro.
My anger manifests when no one will help me and stuff goes wrong and I can’t cope. But then I guess you’ve got a support network.

Take care mate
 
Brilliant stuff, fellas. Please keep talking and being honest. You aren't just helping each other, you are helping those people who silently read your words.
 
HarryVegas said:
Brilliant stuff, fellas. Please keep talking and being honest. You aren't just helping each other, you are helping those people who silently read your words.
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No bloody idea where I go from here Harry

Any trust I had in that counsellor from my previous meetings with her has gone.

I emailed her a timeline as she asked me too a few days ago. Included a few details that could be seen as incriminating. Not even an acknowledgment.

Where do I go from here? Like I said the trust has gone.

Trying to avoid alcohol but Got drunk tonight. Two bottles of wine in a couple of hours.

Got to pick someone up at 8:20am. Will I make it? Will I still be over the limit. Probably yes. Who knows.
 
Take care aet, as Harry said a lot of people on here read your and others comments and most if not all will take strength from them.

At the end of the day you have to do what is right for you.

I have no idea what you are going through, but my partner suffers terribly from the black dog and it just blind sides you.

One day she can be delirously happy, the next its like she can't get out of bed and you wonder where it came from. Stress and anxiety really dont help (currently building a new house and thats tough)

Kia kaha aet, hopefully you can re build the trust with the counsellor, but it must be tough after laying out your thoughts and feelings like that
 
Aet290204 said:
No bloody idea where I go from here Harry

Any trust I had in that counsellor from my previous meetings with her has gone.

I emailed her a timeline as she asked me too a few days ago. Included a few details that could be seen as incriminating. Not even an acknowledgment.

Where do I go from here? Like I said the trust has gone.

Trying to avoid alcohol but Got drunk tonight. Two bottles of wine in a couple of hours.

Got to pick someone up at 8:20am. Will I make it? Will I still be over the limit. Probably yes. Who knows.
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Hello aet, I'm up and about for the next hour if you want to post stuff on here.

I've returned home after watching a poor Plymouth Argyle lose 0-2 in the League Cup to Peterborough. I didn't get a proper number on them, but there were approximately 150-200 away fans. Fair play to 'em, that was far more than my guesstimate.
 
weemoby said:
Hello aet, I'm up and about for the next hour if you want to post stuff on here.

I've returned home after watching a poor Plymouth Argyle lose 0-2 in the League Cup to Peterborough. I didn't get a proper number on them, but there were approximately 150-200 away fans. Fair play to 'em, that was far more than my guesstimate.
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Up the Posh!!!

Bet they lose on Saturday though!
 
weemoby said:
Hello aet, I'm up and about for the next hour if you want to post stuff on here.

I've returned home after watching a poor Plymouth Argyle lose 0-2 in the League Cup to Peterborough. I didn't get a proper number on them, but there were approximately 150-200 away fans. Fair play to 'em, that was far more than my guesstimate.
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Hi weemoby - 220
 
Aet290204 said:
Up the Posh!!!

Bet they lose on Saturday though!
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Given their display tonight, I doubt that my friend. For better or worse, I've just been gifted a free ticket for the league rematch on Saturday.

I'll be sure to update you after the match. Although, to be honest, I might have a drink or three on Saturday. So the match report (and number of away fans) may have to wait till a hangover Sunday.

Take care.
 
weemoby said:
Given their display tonight, I doubt that my friend. For better or worse, I've just been gifted a free ticket for the league rematch on Saturday.

I'll be sure to update you after the match. Although, to be honest, I might have a drink or three on Saturday. So the match report (and number of away fans) may have to wait till a hangover Sunday.

Take care.
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I should just sack work off and travel Down to Devon for the weekend.

Trouble is i’d rather sack work off and travel up to the land of smog.

Utb and all that
 
Aet, I'm no expert at all, but hopefully I don't post nonsense, so you do what feels best for you. Either head to Devon, or pop up North.

Either way, I am looking forward to posting a message to you on late Saturday/ Sunday once Peterborough beat Plymouth Argyle for the 2nd time in 3 days.

Take care aet, and Up the Boro 👍
 
Aet290204 said:
No bloody idea where I go from here Harry

Any trust I had in that counsellor from my previous meetings with her has gone.

I emailed her a timeline as she asked me too a few days ago. Included a few details that could be seen as incriminating. Not even an acknowledgment.

Where do I go from here? Like I said the trust has gone.

Trying to avoid alcohol but Got drunk tonight. Two bottles of wine in a couple of hours.

Got to pick someone up at 8:20am. Will I make it? Will I still be over the limit. Probably yes. Who knows.
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It will be worth going back to your doctors and talking about your issues with that counsellor. The first one i had I wasn't happy or comfortable with and when I went to the doctors and explained he gave me a list of another 3. He said counsellors are like medication, and sometimes it can take a few goes to get the right one to do the right job. So keep going Aet, don't let this one experience put you off, it wasn't you to blame and they obviously weren't the right person you needed
 
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